Please bear with me as this is the first time I have posted on this forum and I'm not even sure I'm doing the right thing.
My husband and I have been together nearly 8 years and only got married last November. We met when we were 16 (me) and 17 (him), got together at 17 and 18, then I was at uni and him in low paid jobs so still living with our parents. We got engaged at 20 and 21 when we'd been together for 3.5 years and moved in together at 21 and 22 when we had been together for 4 years. When we moved in together we had my student debts to pay off, then saved for a couple of nice holidays then saved for our wedding, getting married last year.
We've had our little ups and downs over the years after most couples do but the past few months have been hell. We seem to argue all the time, really get at each other, don't spend much quality time together and in all honesty seem a bit fed up of each other. This is not how I expected married life to be.
The last straw was as follows. While we were on our honeymoon in Florida, the space shuttle should have been launched from Kennedy Space Centre but was cancelled. My husband is really into that stuff and was gutted. Each month our salaries go into a joint account where all our bills come out of and money goes into our joint savings account (for a deposit on a house), then we transfer equal amounts into our own separate accounts for our own spending. Being a woman I generally spend my money each month but my husband saves some of his. Because we missed he shuttle launch he decided to use his saved money to go back to Florida last week for when it was rearranged. I couldn't afford to go (none of my own savings) so stayed at home, which was fair enough. I missed him desperately and he was away for 10 days which seemed like forever. I stayed at home with 2 cats for company, worked and did housework while he had a great time on holiday. The shuttle didn't go up again and one of the first things he said when he came back was that he wants to go again in July when it has been rescheduled for. He didn't even seem to have missed me that much and obviously isn't bothered about spending another week or so away from me in just a couple of months time. There was no invite for me. He also mentioned that a couple of friends he has out there (he met online and spent time with them last week) are planning to tour Europe next year. He has offered for them to stay with us while in England (fine by me) but then says he is going to join them for the rest of their tour, again me not invited.
I am really hurt that he seems to want to spend so much time apart and that he wants to travel and great experiences with other people rather than me. Also, these friends seem to have a great influence on him. I have tried to convince him over the years that we should have some holidays in Europe (only ever been to America together) and he's always turned his nose up and told me how sh*t it would be. Now suddenly he's keen to tour the whole continent with them. While he was in Florida he tried all sorts of new foods (Mexican, Japanese, etc) whereas usually he is very fussy and would refuse to eat anything like that if I suggested it.
Anyway, sorry this is so long but I do feel better getting it off my chest. Do I have a right to feel hurt or am I being unreasonable? We've barely spoken since he got back. He knows I'm upset but just doesn't seem to care. He says I am being rediculous and we can't spend 24/7 together. I'm very happy not to spend 24/7 together and think time apart does couples good, but I never expected to get married and then start planning almost separate lives. At this rate I really can't see us being married long term and this kills me. We just seem to be falling apart and he is getting further and further away from me emotionally and I don't know what to do.
Please help me and please be honest.
My husband and I have been together nearly 8 years and only got married last November. We met when we were 16 (me) and 17 (him), got together at 17 and 18, then I was at uni and him in low paid jobs so still living with our parents. We got engaged at 20 and 21 when we'd been together for 3.5 years and moved in together at 21 and 22 when we had been together for 4 years. When we moved in together we had my student debts to pay off, then saved for a couple of nice holidays then saved for our wedding, getting married last year.
We've had our little ups and downs over the years after most couples do but the past few months have been hell. We seem to argue all the time, really get at each other, don't spend much quality time together and in all honesty seem a bit fed up of each other. This is not how I expected married life to be.
The last straw was as follows. While we were on our honeymoon in Florida, the space shuttle should have been launched from Kennedy Space Centre but was cancelled. My husband is really into that stuff and was gutted. Each month our salaries go into a joint account where all our bills come out of and money goes into our joint savings account (for a deposit on a house), then we transfer equal amounts into our own separate accounts for our own spending. Being a woman I generally spend my money each month but my husband saves some of his. Because we missed he shuttle launch he decided to use his saved money to go back to Florida last week for when it was rearranged. I couldn't afford to go (none of my own savings) so stayed at home, which was fair enough. I missed him desperately and he was away for 10 days which seemed like forever. I stayed at home with 2 cats for company, worked and did housework while he had a great time on holiday. The shuttle didn't go up again and one of the first things he said when he came back was that he wants to go again in July when it has been rescheduled for. He didn't even seem to have missed me that much and obviously isn't bothered about spending another week or so away from me in just a couple of months time. There was no invite for me. He also mentioned that a couple of friends he has out there (he met online and spent time with them last week) are planning to tour Europe next year. He has offered for them to stay with us while in England (fine by me) but then says he is going to join them for the rest of their tour, again me not invited.
I am really hurt that he seems to want to spend so much time apart and that he wants to travel and great experiences with other people rather than me. Also, these friends seem to have a great influence on him. I have tried to convince him over the years that we should have some holidays in Europe (only ever been to America together) and he's always turned his nose up and told me how sh*t it would be. Now suddenly he's keen to tour the whole continent with them. While he was in Florida he tried all sorts of new foods (Mexican, Japanese, etc) whereas usually he is very fussy and would refuse to eat anything like that if I suggested it.
Anyway, sorry this is so long but I do feel better getting it off my chest. Do I have a right to feel hurt or am I being unreasonable? We've barely spoken since he got back. He knows I'm upset but just doesn't seem to care. He says I am being rediculous and we can't spend 24/7 together. I'm very happy not to spend 24/7 together and think time apart does couples good, but I never expected to get married and then start planning almost separate lives. At this rate I really can't see us being married long term and this kills me. We just seem to be falling apart and he is getting further and further away from me emotionally and I don't know what to do.
Please help me and please be honest.
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