Raped 10 times

[ItsMyFault]

okay, so basically here it is, im 14 almost 15, ive been raped 10 times in less than 2 years. 4 of those times were by my 17 year old brother and his friends when they were stoned.
the other 7 were all gang rapes, mostly by groups of guys i considered my friends.
they would invite me over for a party and it would be about 7 or 8 guys just waiting for me.
im only 14 and have had sex with 30+ people.
the only person ive told is my boyfriend of 1 1/2 years, and it freaked him out in the beginning but now hes trying to help.

And i am Also bulimic and i self harm daily.
now im afraid of all guys and let them do whatever they want cause how the hell am i gonna stop em?

[lasuntela]

hi, there is hope

Being molested is not the end.

to live a cautious life is the best and could be a saving grace next time.

don't you have friends?

Get one, in whom you could confide, and go out together.

you'll sure make it, so as a rape victim, do not give up!

Lasun

[lasuntela]

its not over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its not over until you classify yourdelf as a waste

so try to relax.

draw up a schedule for yourself
avoid idleness and draw close to God - Your Maker!!!!!!!!!!

lasun