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I'm new on here. On the 9th December 2013 round 10.30 to midnight I was reaptedly raped by a man whom I loved and trusted with my life. He wasn't exactly my boyfriend but the closest thing I've had to one.
We had known each since we was 12. We meet in secondary school I loved him since than. Anyway we never dated in school, as we was both quite young and immature. Than an incident happened so we never spoke again please bear with me. With all the back ground information.
We never spoke for 6 years after that incident properly. It wasn't till January of 2013 when I messaged him via Facebook, just saying hey. We got back into contact. Exchanged numbers. We quickly began a sexual relationship. I loved him very much. But things went very wrong quickly. It became abousive.
On the night in question. I invited him to come over to my house as my mother was working night shift,
Anyway at the beginning it was consensual than he wanted to do Anal. I refused at fist then I said okay please be gentile. As soon as he penetrated me it hurt so much. I couldn't bear the pain anymore. I asked him to stop, he didn't stop. I assumed as my head was pressed against the sofa. That he couldn't hear me. So I said it again a little louder. I said please stop your hurting me. Than he told me to shush and put a cushion over my face. On the back of my head. And he continued. For round 5 minutes. Then he finally stopped.
I was in so much pain and couldn't move. It hurt so much.
He got off me and was standing in front of me,
And he began pulling my arms to get to the floor. I was trying to push his hands off. I was telling him ) please stop no I don't want too. I'm in pain please I'm serious I was begging him to stop, but he said no come here and pulled me to the floor. And pushed his penis in my mouth. While he was slapping me across the face.
After he did that. He throw me back to the sofa got hold of my legs spread them apart. And penetrated me in my vagina it hurt. So much.
To cut the story short he raped me again anally and vaginally.
Till he came in my mouth and forced me to swallow)
After the rape couple of days after I told my uni counsellor who than phoned the havens and I was taken there to be medically examined. I didn't decide to report what happened than. As I didn't want to accept what happened.
When I finally confronted my attacker ) he denied it . And called me crazy and implied that I made it up. And i believed him and nearly almost went insane.
I just recently reported the rape this June.
I've done my video interview. But I've still not heard anything from my soit officer.
I believe they are looking for him to question him.
I've done a lot of research and I know historic rape allegations are the hardest to prosecute. Although I pray that his charged but I hardly doubt he will be charged.
I honestly don't know what to do is his not.
I've tried to put this behind me and move on but it's hard. I'm constantly reminded of the hell he put me through that night. His moved on and has a new girlfriend ) while I barely sleep. Eat or think, my life has stopped still.
I'm so anxious waiting to hear whether he was been questioned)
I just need support and perhaps some advice.
Thank you and sorry for the long message.
I'm new on here. On the 9th December 2013 round 10.30 to midnight I was reaptedly raped by a man whom I loved and trusted with my life. He wasn't exactly my boyfriend but the closest thing I've had to one.
We had known each since we was 12. We meet in secondary school I loved him since than. Anyway we never dated in school, as we was both quite young and immature. Than an incident happened so we never spoke again please bear with me. With all the back ground information.
We never spoke for 6 years after that incident properly. It wasn't till January of 2013 when I messaged him via Facebook, just saying hey. We got back into contact. Exchanged numbers. We quickly began a sexual relationship. I loved him very much. But things went very wrong quickly. It became abousive.
On the night in question. I invited him to come over to my house as my mother was working night shift,
Anyway at the beginning it was consensual than he wanted to do Anal. I refused at fist then I said okay please be gentile. As soon as he penetrated me it hurt so much. I couldn't bear the pain anymore. I asked him to stop, he didn't stop. I assumed as my head was pressed against the sofa. That he couldn't hear me. So I said it again a little louder. I said please stop your hurting me. Than he told me to shush and put a cushion over my face. On the back of my head. And he continued. For round 5 minutes. Then he finally stopped.
I was in so much pain and couldn't move. It hurt so much.
He got off me and was standing in front of me,
And he began pulling my arms to get to the floor. I was trying to push his hands off. I was telling him ) please stop no I don't want too. I'm in pain please I'm serious I was begging him to stop, but he said no come here and pulled me to the floor. And pushed his penis in my mouth. While he was slapping me across the face.
After he did that. He throw me back to the sofa got hold of my legs spread them apart. And penetrated me in my vagina it hurt. So much.
To cut the story short he raped me again anally and vaginally.
Till he came in my mouth and forced me to swallow)
After the rape couple of days after I told my uni counsellor who than phoned the havens and I was taken there to be medically examined. I didn't decide to report what happened than. As I didn't want to accept what happened.
When I finally confronted my attacker ) he denied it . And called me crazy and implied that I made it up. And i believed him and nearly almost went insane.
I just recently reported the rape this June.
I've done my video interview. But I've still not heard anything from my soit officer.
I believe they are looking for him to question him.
I've done a lot of research and I know historic rape allegations are the hardest to prosecute. Although I pray that his charged but I hardly doubt he will be charged.
I honestly don't know what to do is his not.
I've tried to put this behind me and move on but it's hard. I'm constantly reminded of the hell he put me through that night. His moved on and has a new girlfriend ) while I barely sleep. Eat or think, my life has stopped still.
I'm so anxious waiting to hear whether he was been questioned)
I just need support and perhaps some advice.
Thank you and sorry for the long message.
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