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The Sentencing
I went to the sentencing last Thursday, the police made me aware that Geoff would be in the room during sentencing. But it was what I had wanted to do; I wanted to be in the same room as him. The minute he walked into the room my heart started beating fast and hard. He looked surprised to see me and I managed to look him straight in the eye. Inside I was screaming and inside I cried. But I was so brave towards him and for the first time ever I didn?t panic. He scared me when he winked at me.
During the break I spoke to the barrister and the police who advised me against writing the letter because I will get answers I don?t wanna hear. But at the end of the day it is up to me but they feel it would be in my best wishes not to. They tried to tell me it was not my responsibility what he does when he gets out or what he did after he raped me. But somehow I feel it is. But it was good that they had time to listen to my needs.
Seeing his face when the sentencing was announced was very satisfying and even more satisfying was seeing the glare that the defence barrister got off him. During the break before the second half I went to the toilet after a woman who I found out later was one of the victim?s mothers. She asked how I was? And I said its very daunting and for once in my life I burst into tears and she hugged me and kissed me. She said that she thought I was very brave and was dead nice to me. She said that her daughter refuses to go to counselling and I told her a bit about counselling. During the second half the defence barrister tried to make the judge feel sorry for the defendant by saying his life had been affected a lot too. I wanted to scream when he said this, how can he say something like that about someone who goes out of their way to ruin people?s lives to make them more vulnerable.
The justice system finally paid off he got 9 years, which was good considering. They were expecting 3 or 4 years, the most he could have got was 14 then the judge said ?they had to give him credit? for pleading guilty to some offences which meant 30% so the maximum he could have got was 10 years so 9 years is obviously very good. But as I said to grandparents of another victim it doesn?t matter what the sentence is because it wont change the fact he?s ruined his victims lives. I was the only victim there but I felt like I was representing the 6 of us in a way. Does that sound strange? I have never met them but I always felt like I have had a connection with them. I wish I could talk to them or help them in some way but for some reason the police have always kept us apart.
However I have wrote something about counselling that just states how it can help you but also has a few relaxation exercises to help that mother?s daughter I talked to. I am going to put it in with the thank you letter to the police, do you reckon they will pass it on?
I long to talk to one of the victims but I suppose this will never happen they all seem so nice and we are all so similar.
Write bk n tell me what you think?
I went to the sentencing last Thursday, the police made me aware that Geoff would be in the room during sentencing. But it was what I had wanted to do; I wanted to be in the same room as him. The minute he walked into the room my heart started beating fast and hard. He looked surprised to see me and I managed to look him straight in the eye. Inside I was screaming and inside I cried. But I was so brave towards him and for the first time ever I didn?t panic. He scared me when he winked at me.
During the break I spoke to the barrister and the police who advised me against writing the letter because I will get answers I don?t wanna hear. But at the end of the day it is up to me but they feel it would be in my best wishes not to. They tried to tell me it was not my responsibility what he does when he gets out or what he did after he raped me. But somehow I feel it is. But it was good that they had time to listen to my needs.
Seeing his face when the sentencing was announced was very satisfying and even more satisfying was seeing the glare that the defence barrister got off him. During the break before the second half I went to the toilet after a woman who I found out later was one of the victim?s mothers. She asked how I was? And I said its very daunting and for once in my life I burst into tears and she hugged me and kissed me. She said that she thought I was very brave and was dead nice to me. She said that her daughter refuses to go to counselling and I told her a bit about counselling. During the second half the defence barrister tried to make the judge feel sorry for the defendant by saying his life had been affected a lot too. I wanted to scream when he said this, how can he say something like that about someone who goes out of their way to ruin people?s lives to make them more vulnerable.
The justice system finally paid off he got 9 years, which was good considering. They were expecting 3 or 4 years, the most he could have got was 14 then the judge said ?they had to give him credit? for pleading guilty to some offences which meant 30% so the maximum he could have got was 10 years so 9 years is obviously very good. But as I said to grandparents of another victim it doesn?t matter what the sentence is because it wont change the fact he?s ruined his victims lives. I was the only victim there but I felt like I was representing the 6 of us in a way. Does that sound strange? I have never met them but I always felt like I have had a connection with them. I wish I could talk to them or help them in some way but for some reason the police have always kept us apart.
However I have wrote something about counselling that just states how it can help you but also has a few relaxation exercises to help that mother?s daughter I talked to. I am going to put it in with the thank you letter to the police, do you reckon they will pass it on?
I long to talk to one of the victims but I suppose this will never happen they all seem so nice and we are all so similar.
Write bk n tell me what you think?
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