As the title says, I don't know where I belong.
I am trying to heal from what my XH did.
I found out that he had raped a family member The day I found out was the day I left him. I can't go into anymore details...
I started counselling, but I couldn't afford to continue with it.
I don't even know if any of this is making sense.
The thing is, because of what my XH did, I find that I can't fully open up to this new man. I find that I am watching his every move - especially around my family members. I HATE doing that to him. There is no reason what so ever not to trust him - but the 'What If' is there and it's doing my head in.
I trusted my XH and look what happened there?
I want to tell the new man my fears, but what would he think if I told him that I am 'watching' him? Will I ever learn to trust someone again? What would it be like if we decide to have children together if I'm like this with my family members?
I am trying to heal from what my XH did.
I found out that he had raped a family member The day I found out was the day I left him. I can't go into anymore details...
I started counselling, but I couldn't afford to continue with it.
I don't even know if any of this is making sense.
The thing is, because of what my XH did, I find that I can't fully open up to this new man. I find that I am watching his every move - especially around my family members. I HATE doing that to him. There is no reason what so ever not to trust him - but the 'What If' is there and it's doing my head in.
I trusted my XH and look what happened there?
I want to tell the new man my fears, but what would he think if I told him that I am 'watching' him? Will I ever learn to trust someone again? What would it be like if we decide to have children together if I'm like this with my family members?
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