It has been one year since my court case came to an close and i was cleared within 30 minutes. But I fell that came with an price. the price was having my life ruined for life.
I Have been trying i now have an job, but i fell no one wants me as an friend as i'm messed up. At the end of the day i'm very hurt inside as in 2006 i was an top popular person today i fell like an i'm an no one and just some number to the police and CPS.
Theres one guy i met at work, my age really great guy but I fell his only taking me out to an few bars and nightclubs as he fells sorry for me. I don't know if he wants to be pals with me or not. All of his mates are ok with me some seem happy to see me like hows u doing and sometime they give me a hug as an greeting depends. I think they know about the case as he may of told him an little about it i'm not 100% sure. But as i lost all my confidance when this happened i fell i never going to fix my life.
Problem is i only see them drinking i never do any causal things with them like football, etc. althrough its ok as it gets me out and talking but i'm not 100% sure if they just fell sorry for me as what i been through or if there doing this as they are pals.
as in 2006 i was an very althelic chatty outgoing teen, today its turned me to an depressed, quite, shy person. Althrough i did not do this and was cleared i fell the police and cps won as they ****ed up my life. its like they have given me an pusihment for this and i did not do it.
sometimes i just wanna give up trying and just surive life instead of living life.
i dont want any couselling as it does not help, nothing is going to help
i don't know what 2 do as at the end of the day i'm still suffering over this
I Have been trying i now have an job, but i fell no one wants me as an friend as i'm messed up. At the end of the day i'm very hurt inside as in 2006 i was an top popular person today i fell like an i'm an no one and just some number to the police and CPS.
Theres one guy i met at work, my age really great guy but I fell his only taking me out to an few bars and nightclubs as he fells sorry for me. I don't know if he wants to be pals with me or not. All of his mates are ok with me some seem happy to see me like hows u doing and sometime they give me a hug as an greeting depends. I think they know about the case as he may of told him an little about it i'm not 100% sure. But as i lost all my confidance when this happened i fell i never going to fix my life.
Problem is i only see them drinking i never do any causal things with them like football, etc. althrough its ok as it gets me out and talking but i'm not 100% sure if they just fell sorry for me as what i been through or if there doing this as they are pals.
as in 2006 i was an very althelic chatty outgoing teen, today its turned me to an depressed, quite, shy person. Althrough i did not do this and was cleared i fell the police and cps won as they ****ed up my life. its like they have given me an pusihment for this and i did not do it.
sometimes i just wanna give up trying and just surive life instead of living life.
i dont want any couselling as it does not help, nothing is going to help
i don't know what 2 do as at the end of the day i'm still suffering over this
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