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For the last year a lie has brought done everything I have built in lifethat has left me very close to edge and giving up, iv lost my job my home and most importantly iv lost my two bundles of joy!
Currently I'm awaiting to go to trail n prep, don't even understand how its even got this far, key evidence we have torn to shreads yet still getting punished, I have missed bdays Xmas and find it a daily battle to even get out of bed cause the pain of not seening them or hug them, even wash there clothes!
I have an amazing partner who has stood by me n has said she is not going anywhere, she deserves so much more then what I'm putting her through, but she keeps me strong on those dark days! If ur going through this find someone who can keep u strong just by sitting next to or a touch that clears your dark thoughts! But its not easy, to keep the darkness away and you will push the people who are there away, I personally struggle with feelings and exspressing feelings due to what can be classed as trauma in childhood! But the way I let my partner know how I feel is through songs and films! Not the best but its all I can muster at the mo!
I didn't know what to put but probably is a random mess to read, think I just need to get it of my head and heart! So thank you for letting me have a safe place just say what's going on!
Let's all remember that liars won't outlast the truth
Currently I'm awaiting to go to trail n prep, don't even understand how its even got this far, key evidence we have torn to shreads yet still getting punished, I have missed bdays Xmas and find it a daily battle to even get out of bed cause the pain of not seening them or hug them, even wash there clothes!
I have an amazing partner who has stood by me n has said she is not going anywhere, she deserves so much more then what I'm putting her through, but she keeps me strong on those dark days! If ur going through this find someone who can keep u strong just by sitting next to or a touch that clears your dark thoughts! But its not easy, to keep the darkness away and you will push the people who are there away, I personally struggle with feelings and exspressing feelings due to what can be classed as trauma in childhood! But the way I let my partner know how I feel is through songs and films! Not the best but its all I can muster at the mo!
I didn't know what to put but probably is a random mess to read, think I just need to get it of my head and heart! So thank you for letting me have a safe place just say what's going on!
Let's all remember that liars won't outlast the truth
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