Hi, I'm looking for a little advice...
Please don't judge me, especially by my past as it is so far in the past, I've taken myself from hopeless IV Heroin/Crack/Benzos addict for 14 yrs yada yada to a bloke with 14yrs clean under his belt, married for 10yrs, children, grandchildren, nieces n nephews and allowed to see them all. and despite licence and S/S and one offence back in 02 NO restrictions around kids contact/working with them (except the obvious jobs !) as i am thought of really well and trusted big time ! Also a Shop Manager who works despite amputation as don't want to sit on Benefits...(kids in n out all day and police/Prob fine with it !) point is, I'm the polar opposite of who i was 20 yrs ago !!
My off in 02 was THE catalyst for me to change EVERYTHING in my life and finally sort my **** out... my 'rock bottom' (Not even leg amputation could stop me using but this, did immediately !! (Slept with girl, didn't know age, parted good terms, 2days later her junkie mum turned up saying i slept with u age, girl (her) and wanted cash/car/drugs from me... it all came out week later and police said rape as was 13 !
I admitted everything from the start, took my time, changed my life and here i am 14yrs later a trusted successful professional !
Despite on licence still untill June (8 successful years ) I'm on bail as there are no concerns about me at all !
Right, arrested other day, suspic rape in 96 at flat i shared with 2 others during party in middle of the massive and only common area on 1st floor above shops while ALL 'partygoers' were upstairs in private areas apparently which is wrong logistically and as well as 'partygoers' 2 of the lads living there sold drugs and common area was so busy with buyers up n down all day n nite too...
* Said she went downstairs with me (why ? No one said !) And well, you get the picture...
* Said specifically it happened on a Dk Burgandy couch/suite/chair -- i can prove (witnesses/pictires ) that ALL and ONLY furniture in that flat was 'light minty green' !
* Said that one of other renters walked in and witnessed it no more than 6 feet away and her in Gothic getup, me doing God knows what ( theres no love lost between me n him as we parted badly and since we last spoke he would have been aware of my off so his opinion wont have improved. Police went to speak to him and he isn't backing her, says has no recollection of that !
* This flat was busy daily nevermind if people were gathering, suppliers, buyers, locals, friends, friends of friends etc and everyone had to go right through where she says it happened and would have stopped it or reported it ! Not to mention 'partygoers' up n down n people going shop. It had 2 floors above shop 1st massive front/dining common room with open doors at both ends and the only room big enough to get more than 6 people in and kitchen n small bathroom while up again the same area is 2 single bedrooms, landing bathroom and double bedroom which is only a little bigger than the others and stairs too... No room for a party !
Wouldn't have strangers upstairs in private areas (have i sat in bedrooms at times, course but we hung about downstairs above shop opposite park hanging out window a lot... ) flat was crazy chaos, young idiots 20yr old while she was 14, no responsibilities, selling, using etc etc...
* people would have seen !
*she said she had a drink while there and was 'Queezy', she hasn't mentioned drugs or said i gave her anything BTW ! So how good can she remember/recall well ?
* I don't remember her or her name, never been with a 'Goth' period ! Did (not only me) our flat sometimes get out of hand with people in n out on normal day and have a somewhat 'open door' policy at times that extended to every Tom Dick 'N Harry and sometimes people we spoke to out the window that hung around... Yes ! How old was everyone ? Dunno ! But normally we were all similar age rather than older or under. We were all well known in the area, the 'cool' lads we thought, clubbing, taking drugs, doing up cars with fat sound systems, motorbikes etc etc a complete waste of my life, i was using from 15 till 28 and 8 years were the worst drugs in the worst way, it was actually later the same year i started using Heroin etc... but at that time i sold/smoked weed and my m8 sold speed n that was that really, ocassional drinking binges...
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Either she has intentionally/unintentionally made it up/ put 2 + 2 together after hearing about my case years ago and adding my name to a hazy memory where she didn't have a name before ?
Or... God forbid, something has happened to her in a Dk burgandy armchair just not at that flat because there wasn't one or at that time/on that night with that witness as he doesn't remember what WOULD stick in his mind and deffo not me !! ??
I hope not but come on... !! So the police are away thinking about things and i guess talking to the CPS as they haven't charged me with anything while I'm slowly losing my ****, can't focus on anything in my life and all the progress I've made and my Wife and my Family slipping from my grasp as we speak... i literally collapsed when they came round and the Copper had to pick me up !!
***Surely her being wrong on 2 out of 3 points (one a witness (or not as this is) ) leaves it a very small stretch of the imagination to think she's wrong about point No 3... me !?!?
Just to add, i was still in long term relationship at that time, acted like an idiot yes but unfaithful ? NEVER !
Please don't judge me, especially by my past as it is so far in the past, I've taken myself from hopeless IV Heroin/Crack/Benzos addict for 14 yrs yada yada to a bloke with 14yrs clean under his belt, married for 10yrs, children, grandchildren, nieces n nephews and allowed to see them all. and despite licence and S/S and one offence back in 02 NO restrictions around kids contact/working with them (except the obvious jobs !) as i am thought of really well and trusted big time ! Also a Shop Manager who works despite amputation as don't want to sit on Benefits...(kids in n out all day and police/Prob fine with it !) point is, I'm the polar opposite of who i was 20 yrs ago !!
My off in 02 was THE catalyst for me to change EVERYTHING in my life and finally sort my **** out... my 'rock bottom' (Not even leg amputation could stop me using but this, did immediately !! (Slept with girl, didn't know age, parted good terms, 2days later her junkie mum turned up saying i slept with u age, girl (her) and wanted cash/car/drugs from me... it all came out week later and police said rape as was 13 !
I admitted everything from the start, took my time, changed my life and here i am 14yrs later a trusted successful professional !
Despite on licence still untill June (8 successful years ) I'm on bail as there are no concerns about me at all !
Right, arrested other day, suspic rape in 96 at flat i shared with 2 others during party in middle of the massive and only common area on 1st floor above shops while ALL 'partygoers' were upstairs in private areas apparently which is wrong logistically and as well as 'partygoers' 2 of the lads living there sold drugs and common area was so busy with buyers up n down all day n nite too...
* Said she went downstairs with me (why ? No one said !) And well, you get the picture...
* Said specifically it happened on a Dk Burgandy couch/suite/chair -- i can prove (witnesses/pictires ) that ALL and ONLY furniture in that flat was 'light minty green' !
* Said that one of other renters walked in and witnessed it no more than 6 feet away and her in Gothic getup, me doing God knows what ( theres no love lost between me n him as we parted badly and since we last spoke he would have been aware of my off so his opinion wont have improved. Police went to speak to him and he isn't backing her, says has no recollection of that !
* This flat was busy daily nevermind if people were gathering, suppliers, buyers, locals, friends, friends of friends etc and everyone had to go right through where she says it happened and would have stopped it or reported it ! Not to mention 'partygoers' up n down n people going shop. It had 2 floors above shop 1st massive front/dining common room with open doors at both ends and the only room big enough to get more than 6 people in and kitchen n small bathroom while up again the same area is 2 single bedrooms, landing bathroom and double bedroom which is only a little bigger than the others and stairs too... No room for a party !
Wouldn't have strangers upstairs in private areas (have i sat in bedrooms at times, course but we hung about downstairs above shop opposite park hanging out window a lot... ) flat was crazy chaos, young idiots 20yr old while she was 14, no responsibilities, selling, using etc etc...
* people would have seen !
*she said she had a drink while there and was 'Queezy', she hasn't mentioned drugs or said i gave her anything BTW ! So how good can she remember/recall well ?
* I don't remember her or her name, never been with a 'Goth' period ! Did (not only me) our flat sometimes get out of hand with people in n out on normal day and have a somewhat 'open door' policy at times that extended to every Tom Dick 'N Harry and sometimes people we spoke to out the window that hung around... Yes ! How old was everyone ? Dunno ! But normally we were all similar age rather than older or under. We were all well known in the area, the 'cool' lads we thought, clubbing, taking drugs, doing up cars with fat sound systems, motorbikes etc etc a complete waste of my life, i was using from 15 till 28 and 8 years were the worst drugs in the worst way, it was actually later the same year i started using Heroin etc... but at that time i sold/smoked weed and my m8 sold speed n that was that really, ocassional drinking binges...
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Either she has intentionally/unintentionally made it up/ put 2 + 2 together after hearing about my case years ago and adding my name to a hazy memory where she didn't have a name before ?
Or... God forbid, something has happened to her in a Dk burgandy armchair just not at that flat because there wasn't one or at that time/on that night with that witness as he doesn't remember what WOULD stick in his mind and deffo not me !! ??
I hope not but come on... !! So the police are away thinking about things and i guess talking to the CPS as they haven't charged me with anything while I'm slowly losing my ****, can't focus on anything in my life and all the progress I've made and my Wife and my Family slipping from my grasp as we speak... i literally collapsed when they came round and the Copper had to pick me up !!
***Surely her being wrong on 2 out of 3 points (one a witness (or not as this is) ) leaves it a very small stretch of the imagination to think she's wrong about point No 3... me !?!?
Just to add, i was still in long term relationship at that time, acted like an idiot yes but unfaithful ? NEVER !
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