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Three years ago I was suffering from a rare and complex condition caled pancreatic insulinoma. This condition is so rare it effects less than 4 people per million and only two or three cases have been reported in UK for a number of years. One of the most debilitating side effects of this condition is a complete and devestating change in the sufferers personality, behaviour and perceptions. I was a serving british army officer stationed in Baghdad when my illness started to manifest itself. I would become confused, extremely forgetful, anxious and freightened. Later the symptoms would disappear. On returning from Baghdad these bouts of depresion, unusual and strange behaviour became more and more regular, often resulting in me starting fights with complete strangers, being extremely aggressive and an insatiable desire for excitement or an adrenalin rush. I started doing really stupid things like deliberately lying on the passenger seat of my car whilst travelling at 70mph and counting to 10 or 20 or even 30. I could not understand why I was getting such a thrill from doing something so bloody stupid. I then started to watch on line videos of beheadings, mutilations and extreme violence. This behaviour was becomming so common I was doing it up to 20 times a day. My confusional state was becoming more and more pronounced. I was stopped from driving company vehicles because of my erratic behaviour and would often cry scream and bang my head against a wall as the pain gave me relief from the anguish I was feeling. I started to watch extreme pornography and eventual child abuse. This was carried out not in secret but in the living room of my home where my partner and children were present. The rush of being "seen" by them was such an overwhelming rush, I'd deliberately see how far I could go without them actually observing what I was looking at. There was no sexual gratification just the "fear" of being caught. I would immediately delete anything i'd viewed afterwards.
After much medical investigation and head scratching i was diagnosed with pncreatic insulinoma. Whilst awaiting an operation my viewing of illegal pornography was found out by the police. I was duly arrested and convicted (I was guilty, I said so immediately). I was given a two year suspended sentence and placed on the sexual offenders list. I also attended the ISOTP programme. Naturally my whole life went down the drain. I lost my home, my job, my friends, everything. The crux of the matter however is this, At the time of my arrest my step children were taken away and underwent a huge amount of questioning by social services and police child protection officers. This went on for almost 6 months. They were asked time and time again whether I had physically or sexually interfered with them, I had not and they also said I had not. Three years later,(just before Christmas) I was arrested by the police for harassment of my step daughter, she had complained that I'd driven past her. (Once in three years. I never stopped, slowed down, made eye contact or anything). I was due to go to court on 26 feb 2013. Yesterday I received a letter from my solicitor stating the case had been discontinued due to lack of evidence. Not 24 hours later the police turned up at my door to inform me that an accusation of sexual assault had now been made against me, though wouldn't say who by. My soliciter presumes it will be as a result of the harassment allegation made by my ex step daughter being thrown out.
I am now in a terrible state as I've managed to start a new life, get a new job and am desperately trying to move on. This allegation although totally malicious, will destroy me.
Oh, my operation was a success though I no longer posess a spleen nor a pancreas.
Any advice, support or comments would be really helpful. How can someone make such allegations against me three years after stating I'd never done anything except be a good step-dad.
After much medical investigation and head scratching i was diagnosed with pncreatic insulinoma. Whilst awaiting an operation my viewing of illegal pornography was found out by the police. I was duly arrested and convicted (I was guilty, I said so immediately). I was given a two year suspended sentence and placed on the sexual offenders list. I also attended the ISOTP programme. Naturally my whole life went down the drain. I lost my home, my job, my friends, everything. The crux of the matter however is this, At the time of my arrest my step children were taken away and underwent a huge amount of questioning by social services and police child protection officers. This went on for almost 6 months. They were asked time and time again whether I had physically or sexually interfered with them, I had not and they also said I had not. Three years later,(just before Christmas) I was arrested by the police for harassment of my step daughter, she had complained that I'd driven past her. (Once in three years. I never stopped, slowed down, made eye contact or anything). I was due to go to court on 26 feb 2013. Yesterday I received a letter from my solicitor stating the case had been discontinued due to lack of evidence. Not 24 hours later the police turned up at my door to inform me that an accusation of sexual assault had now been made against me, though wouldn't say who by. My soliciter presumes it will be as a result of the harassment allegation made by my ex step daughter being thrown out.
I am now in a terrible state as I've managed to start a new life, get a new job and am desperately trying to move on. This allegation although totally malicious, will destroy me.
Oh, my operation was a success though I no longer posess a spleen nor a pancreas.
Any advice, support or comments would be really helpful. How can someone make such allegations against me three years after stating I'd never done anything except be a good step-dad.
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