My Story

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well congratulations anyway! I am very pleased to read this.

[largactyl1]

I agree I'm not comfortable to blaming it all on mental health(Bipolar)... but I want to keep this perfect image i have of her I need to join the 2 halves of her I have together the perfect side and the one to put me on this roller coaster.

When I allow myself to see her for real I may beable to move on.

She's left me a wonderful legacy of closer friends and a stronger family, something to be happy for.

Maybe time for a walk in the sun make the most of this "Sicky"

Hi there, hope that you are able to put the past in the past, although I can understand you will have some bumpy feelings ahead.

Just a few words on Bipolar Disorder - true Bipolar is an extreme and generally psychotic condition whereby ,for example, when on a high you might believe that you are the queen/Jesus (I've met many Jesus's),George Michael, or are living in heaven (when you totally aren't - haven't eaten in weeks and been caught by the police trying to set fire to you hair, walking around the city-centre (in January) in a pair of pyjama's and silver trainers (that was me).

However, when on a low, you are full of a tangible (to you) evil, filled with black blood, unable to run away from horrible scenes in yr head and you totally just want to die. Both extremes end up with a stay in yr local Mental hospital.

Bipolar is often mistaken for depression and also Borderline Personality Disorder - which is someone who has a lot of moodiness, unstable friendships etc. often tells lies, very believable, often heavy drinker or substance user (not always) blows hot and cold etc.

I just wanted to raise this issue as many people (here, in magazines, on telly etc "Oh he/she is a bit Bipolar") confuse the two - or just that someone is not that stable. Bipolar is in reality a very extreme disease but generally does not lead to lying, but always leads to the loony bin (otherwise you won't be diagnosed fully).

Love from
Jen

[largactyl1]

PS, could som lovely mod make the bit on Mental Health make this into a new thread for me as there is a lot of confusion between Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD), and Bipolar Disorder. People's time would be better reading up about BPD and Bipolar, rather than looking at just Bipolar as there is so much misunderstanding re. Bipolar

Thanks
Jen x

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I've been doing plenty of reading up on both Bipolar/BPD and also Paranoia to try and understand why this wonderful women turned on me.

Bipolar is in her family but I also suspect BPD this was confirmed by a friend of the family(mental health nurse) when i was talking her through what had gone on.

[yoda]

1. Doc signed me back to work ok, but still off with a bloody cough and cold, it's come to get me now because of stress being lifted and releif.

2. Reading the forum It's obvious i need to hold her accountable for her actions and at the sametime write her out of my life. I wonder what she is playing at visiting next door after all this time.