Hi,
Early 2010 I was invited over a 20 year old girls house to hang out and "party" with.
I met her offline a couple weeks prior and noticed she was extremely interested in doing any drugs with me she could. At the time I was listening to counselors about not drinking or smoking pot and only taking my medications that I have been on almost my whole life. In the 2 week period of getting to know the girl I felt more comfortable and trusting over discussing my personal problems and explaining I am on medication for them. She was one of the many party girls out there that put there hand out whenever anyone has a prescription to "fun pills" as drug addicts call them.
So, I stupidly made the mistake to accept her invite and go over there with a couple of my pills for both of us to take. Everything went fine on the hanging out and talking part and even as I last remember we were both laughing, smiling and talking about silly stuff like intoxicated people do similar to drinking. The next thing that happened was I woke up next to her and got startled like "what the hell just happened" type of confusion. I had some relief wash over me when I noticed we were still both fully clothed, not sweaty and basically no indications that we could of possibly fooled around while we were intoxicated.
The girl was still asleep when I woke up and after I got my shoes on to leave, I leaned over her to nudge her to tell her I was leaving. When I turned around to the door her room mates were standing at the door looking at me with a weirded out look and when walking to the front door with them , I felt like one of them pushed me but, then again I was completely out of it and confused. I was so confused and concerned myself that I called the police and told them what happened. The police eventually showed up with the paramedics and took me aside. The police were extremely angry and aggressive and I walked them through the story as best as I could remember. I stated it was my fault and I took responsibility by calling the police but, it was also her own responsibility as well. They then said I was free to go and so I did.
The next morning I messaged the girl to say I was sorry the night was so incredibly messed up and how terrible I felt. She was not understanding and said her room mates saw me "on top of her". I didn't understand what she was talking about because, like I mentioned already we were both still fully clothed when I woke up. Later on that day it dawned me, were her room mates referring to when I leaned over her and tried telling her I was taking off? Well, turns out within the next two days a tremendous amount of people started making threats and I was now being called a "date rapist" even though I know just as well as the closest people in my life that I have to big of a heart to commit such an act. My music sales started to rapidly decline, friends started to disappear left and right and I became even more alone.
The next month a man part of this entertainment company here in town came to me wanting me to play shows for him but, I declined without him presenting a contract. After more personal threats from these "ravers" (note I am in the U.S) I decided the best option for me would be to move away to Seattle, Wa, which has an amazing music and art night life, not to mention a couple old child hood friends that live there. When I moved away, the man from the entertainment company flipped out for a period of time until he noted someone else can help "manage" me up there.
To skip forward Seattle did not work out and I was forced to come back to Arizona and try to live with a family member. The bus ride home turned to be one of the most horrific and traumatizing experiences ever in my life. The people riding on that bus turned on me out of no where and started saying things like "hes going to meet a nice boy friend where hes going" etc. I eventually went into a full blown panic attack and then into shock. When I came to it, I got off of the bus to immediately call paramedics and explain what felt like my heart was going to explode.
The paramedics came and took me to a hospital out in the middle of nowhere and when stabilized I was free to go. The only problem was I had no money, no cell phone battery, no water and of course no food. I set out and started walking with my laptop and travel bag. I kept walking hoping to god someone would help me out in the middle of no where but, they didn't. Half a day went by and I started to notice I was hallucinating most likely due to my heart beating out of control from panic and dangerous dehydration. I kept walking and accepting that my life was coming close to an end for two days, until I could not walk anymore and eventually collapsed on the side of the road.
I was awoken by four police officers wondering if I was even alive or not. I got up and tried explaining how long I have been stranded and what had happened to me and before I knew it I was taken to an insane asylum for mental recovery. They kept me there for five days before offering if I wanted to fly home or ride a bus home. I bravely chose a bus, most likely because I have a fear of flying as well.
Since August 2010 I have been homeless this whole past year with absolutely no support except guess who? The entertainment manager of a not really legit company. I was also just starting school for the first time in many years again but, having no car, barely enough money for a single bus route and absolutely never any money for food, school did not last more then a few months. I skate boarded mostly every where I had to go which was hard being medicated on drugs such as Opiates and Benzos.
A whole year has gone by of me living in and out of various roach motels and on the verge of suicide. I also have felt for many months I am being followed and didn't understand what the answer was until risking my life getting off of all medications/narcotics that include death in the withdrawll(especially for people like myself with a history of seizures). I believe this whole past year I have for sure actually been under an investigation due to that incident back in march 2010 but, however I have not been arrested(which I feel for some reason is coming soon).
The man who helped keep me alive and what not this entire past year I looked into and he actually owns 5-6 different businesses located here and in the state of California. He also has multiple different cell phone numbers and I am almost certain he is an undercover cop, fed or something with extreme high power to trap criminals. If I had actually the bare minimum family support I have now this past year, then maybe I wouldn't have given this man who's obviously against me so much personal information while being by his side many days for survival. I feel my life is completely ruined and there is no way even an attorney can possibly help, so I came to this forum for any positive advice or help possible.
Early 2010 I was invited over a 20 year old girls house to hang out and "party" with.
I met her offline a couple weeks prior and noticed she was extremely interested in doing any drugs with me she could. At the time I was listening to counselors about not drinking or smoking pot and only taking my medications that I have been on almost my whole life. In the 2 week period of getting to know the girl I felt more comfortable and trusting over discussing my personal problems and explaining I am on medication for them. She was one of the many party girls out there that put there hand out whenever anyone has a prescription to "fun pills" as drug addicts call them.
So, I stupidly made the mistake to accept her invite and go over there with a couple of my pills for both of us to take. Everything went fine on the hanging out and talking part and even as I last remember we were both laughing, smiling and talking about silly stuff like intoxicated people do similar to drinking. The next thing that happened was I woke up next to her and got startled like "what the hell just happened" type of confusion. I had some relief wash over me when I noticed we were still both fully clothed, not sweaty and basically no indications that we could of possibly fooled around while we were intoxicated.
The girl was still asleep when I woke up and after I got my shoes on to leave, I leaned over her to nudge her to tell her I was leaving. When I turned around to the door her room mates were standing at the door looking at me with a weirded out look and when walking to the front door with them , I felt like one of them pushed me but, then again I was completely out of it and confused. I was so confused and concerned myself that I called the police and told them what happened. The police eventually showed up with the paramedics and took me aside. The police were extremely angry and aggressive and I walked them through the story as best as I could remember. I stated it was my fault and I took responsibility by calling the police but, it was also her own responsibility as well. They then said I was free to go and so I did.
The next morning I messaged the girl to say I was sorry the night was so incredibly messed up and how terrible I felt. She was not understanding and said her room mates saw me "on top of her". I didn't understand what she was talking about because, like I mentioned already we were both still fully clothed when I woke up. Later on that day it dawned me, were her room mates referring to when I leaned over her and tried telling her I was taking off? Well, turns out within the next two days a tremendous amount of people started making threats and I was now being called a "date rapist" even though I know just as well as the closest people in my life that I have to big of a heart to commit such an act. My music sales started to rapidly decline, friends started to disappear left and right and I became even more alone.
The next month a man part of this entertainment company here in town came to me wanting me to play shows for him but, I declined without him presenting a contract. After more personal threats from these "ravers" (note I am in the U.S) I decided the best option for me would be to move away to Seattle, Wa, which has an amazing music and art night life, not to mention a couple old child hood friends that live there. When I moved away, the man from the entertainment company flipped out for a period of time until he noted someone else can help "manage" me up there.
To skip forward Seattle did not work out and I was forced to come back to Arizona and try to live with a family member. The bus ride home turned to be one of the most horrific and traumatizing experiences ever in my life. The people riding on that bus turned on me out of no where and started saying things like "hes going to meet a nice boy friend where hes going" etc. I eventually went into a full blown panic attack and then into shock. When I came to it, I got off of the bus to immediately call paramedics and explain what felt like my heart was going to explode.
The paramedics came and took me to a hospital out in the middle of nowhere and when stabilized I was free to go. The only problem was I had no money, no cell phone battery, no water and of course no food. I set out and started walking with my laptop and travel bag. I kept walking hoping to god someone would help me out in the middle of no where but, they didn't. Half a day went by and I started to notice I was hallucinating most likely due to my heart beating out of control from panic and dangerous dehydration. I kept walking and accepting that my life was coming close to an end for two days, until I could not walk anymore and eventually collapsed on the side of the road.
I was awoken by four police officers wondering if I was even alive or not. I got up and tried explaining how long I have been stranded and what had happened to me and before I knew it I was taken to an insane asylum for mental recovery. They kept me there for five days before offering if I wanted to fly home or ride a bus home. I bravely chose a bus, most likely because I have a fear of flying as well.
Since August 2010 I have been homeless this whole past year with absolutely no support except guess who? The entertainment manager of a not really legit company. I was also just starting school for the first time in many years again but, having no car, barely enough money for a single bus route and absolutely never any money for food, school did not last more then a few months. I skate boarded mostly every where I had to go which was hard being medicated on drugs such as Opiates and Benzos.
A whole year has gone by of me living in and out of various roach motels and on the verge of suicide. I also have felt for many months I am being followed and didn't understand what the answer was until risking my life getting off of all medications/narcotics that include death in the withdrawll(especially for people like myself with a history of seizures). I believe this whole past year I have for sure actually been under an investigation due to that incident back in march 2010 but, however I have not been arrested(which I feel for some reason is coming soon).
The man who helped keep me alive and what not this entire past year I looked into and he actually owns 5-6 different businesses located here and in the state of California. He also has multiple different cell phone numbers and I am almost certain he is an undercover cop, fed or something with extreme high power to trap criminals. If I had actually the bare minimum family support I have now this past year, then maybe I wouldn't have given this man who's obviously against me so much personal information while being by his side many days for survival. I feel my life is completely ruined and there is no way even an attorney can possibly help, so I came to this forum for any positive advice or help possible.
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