the case went to trial for the second time in october this year after the first trial was a hung jury. another week of complete hell for me, though i think his barrister was nicer to me this time round, probably cos he saw what a mess i was the last time he cross-examined me. a woman on the jury was ill so we lost a day and as always the court ****ed up numerous times.
this time he accused me of showing him a video of my sisters snorting cocaine (my sisters would have been 9 and 23 so im sure the 9 year old wasnt doing drugs!) and said i had been stalking him (therefore creating a reason for me to make up the fact he raped me). what annoys me is the fact he says i went to where he worked regularly in the month of december but because he said this after i had given my evidence i could not reply to this and because i chose not to listen to him bacause it would be too traumatic and im scared his family would remember what i look like and therefore i would be unsafe i was unable to say that this was IMPOSSIBLE! i was in hospital detained under section!
so i asked the police whether he could be charged with perjury and they said the CPS wont pay for it. but if i can prove he lied then surely that means the trial was a complete farce? and it was.
i understand that crimes of this nature are so difficult to prove beyond reasonable doubt but i had a strong case. he admitted to sex so therefore it was consent that was the issue. i had sustained injuries on my back from the ground which took 2 months to heal and yet these were supposedly from consensual sex? they were so severe child protection had to get involved (the pictures and documents were used as evidence) and had i been a few months younger i would have had to have gone to the police. i was a virgin and yet i was supposed to have just decided to have casual sex with a man i had met once before when i had never even slept with an ex boyfriend i had been with for 9 months (i know this doesnt not mean a person could not decided to lose their virginity in this way though) and after it happened i was so distraught a man heard me crying and screaming streets away and people were trying to help me, one man even let me stay at his home because i was such a wreck.
and his defence was i said no "too late" (ie he had finished already) and that i got upset cos he didnt want to go out with me and therefore a year later i went to the police.
ive had to leave my home because im terrified of him, im sure he will do it again because he believes it was his right. he lied about me stalking him (which i can prove). he skipped bail and went missing for months, then broke his bail conditions and was caught with cannabis.
no regard for the law at all.
his own barrister said he was sorry and he couldnt believe he got away with it.
but i guess the only good thing is i really appreciate the police now. my soit officer was amazing and still supported me until last week, sending letters to try help me move, giving me information about cousellors and generally just listening to me cry without telling me it will all be ok, when it wont. i thank god im christian and have justice in the afterlife to keep me going because without it i'd be making my own justice in this one.
this time he accused me of showing him a video of my sisters snorting cocaine (my sisters would have been 9 and 23 so im sure the 9 year old wasnt doing drugs!) and said i had been stalking him (therefore creating a reason for me to make up the fact he raped me). what annoys me is the fact he says i went to where he worked regularly in the month of december but because he said this after i had given my evidence i could not reply to this and because i chose not to listen to him bacause it would be too traumatic and im scared his family would remember what i look like and therefore i would be unsafe i was unable to say that this was IMPOSSIBLE! i was in hospital detained under section!
so i asked the police whether he could be charged with perjury and they said the CPS wont pay for it. but if i can prove he lied then surely that means the trial was a complete farce? and it was.
i understand that crimes of this nature are so difficult to prove beyond reasonable doubt but i had a strong case. he admitted to sex so therefore it was consent that was the issue. i had sustained injuries on my back from the ground which took 2 months to heal and yet these were supposedly from consensual sex? they were so severe child protection had to get involved (the pictures and documents were used as evidence) and had i been a few months younger i would have had to have gone to the police. i was a virgin and yet i was supposed to have just decided to have casual sex with a man i had met once before when i had never even slept with an ex boyfriend i had been with for 9 months (i know this doesnt not mean a person could not decided to lose their virginity in this way though) and after it happened i was so distraught a man heard me crying and screaming streets away and people were trying to help me, one man even let me stay at his home because i was such a wreck.
and his defence was i said no "too late" (ie he had finished already) and that i got upset cos he didnt want to go out with me and therefore a year later i went to the police.
ive had to leave my home because im terrified of him, im sure he will do it again because he believes it was his right. he lied about me stalking him (which i can prove). he skipped bail and went missing for months, then broke his bail conditions and was caught with cannabis.
no regard for the law at all.
his own barrister said he was sorry and he couldnt believe he got away with it.
but i guess the only good thing is i really appreciate the police now. my soit officer was amazing and still supported me until last week, sending letters to try help me move, giving me information about cousellors and generally just listening to me cry without telling me it will all be ok, when it wont. i thank god im christian and have justice in the afterlife to keep me going because without it i'd be making my own justice in this one.
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