My wife and I got married Sept 2004. Before that we had been together for four years and lived together for most of that time. From about the time we got engaged (July 2003) we started to plan our future together and talking about all of the things that you do when you plan to get married so we were both clear as to what we wanted out of our marriage and what we were getting ourselves into. We even attended a Pre-Marriage session that was offered by the church where we got married. One of the topics was where they made you discuss as a couple the different things that affect a marriage (like money, children, sex etc.) and the aim was that you both fully knew what you both wanted and there were no surprises when you eventually got married.
One of the things that we spoke about at length (probably from the time we got engaged) is children; we both agreed that it is something that we want. My wife is 24 and is currently studying some professional qualifications (which she will hopefully finish by August 2006). I am eight years older than her and because of the age difference my wife said she would prefer to be married a year and then try for a child. We get to Sept this year and she then says October all of which I had no problem with. At the beginning of October we started to try for a child. At the same time my wife was told by her company that if she passes her exams she will be promoted which of course means more money. My wife got her period a week a go and of course she was not pregnant. Ever since she has been told about her possible promotion, my wife has been acting strange, so much so I asked her if there was anything wrong on at least two occasions. Eventually she tells me that she was not disappointed that she was not pregnant and that she had decided that we should no longer try until her exams are over by August next year. Since I am that bit older than my wife she has known that I do not want to be an old dad but because of her age there was a compromise to wait for a year which is what she decided and we have now done.
We sat down last night to try and sort this out and I explained to her that I am shocked that we have talked about it for so long (including the church session) and yet she has changed her mind without speaking to me. I asked her to explain to me why she felt like this and she said she didn't know why and unfortunately at no time did she attempt to come up with suggestions or solutions that could effectively save our marriage. I asked her whether there was a chance that we could get to the end of the summer next year and she could change her mind. Eventually she could not commit to next August and more or less told me that she was not ready for children. It also seems that she went along with trying for a child at the beginning of October because she knew it was what I wanted and it would seem that reality hit home when she got her period and made her realise that she could no longer go through with it even for me. Again I asked her what had changed (because we had spoken about it so much) and in not so many words it was clear that she was waiting to get this job if she passed her exams. This is another problem because if she did not pass the exams next summer then she would have to re-sit them in December 2007, which she said she would. I told her what a serious situation this was and I could not believe she was not making any effort at all to try and resolve things. In the heat of the moment she finally said about trying for a family next October (which is exactly what she said about next August and after talking about it said she couldn't really commit to that either. October would mean she will be offered the job and if we were lucky to conceive shortly thereafter she would have a further 9 months in that new role. She clearly does not want to jeopardise the chance of getting this job even if it does mean going back on everything that we had previously agreed.
I cannot believe that despite all of the planning that we have done and agreeing to everything before we said 'I Do' she now has a completely different agenda to mine, which she has decided on her own without speaking to me. She does not appreciate that her decision also affects my life but this does not seem to concern her. Because of all this I no longer trust her because it is clear that my wife only does the things that suit her and nothing else. I have now accepted that there is nothing I can do if she does not want a child yet and I am now going to have to keep my fingers crossed that she keeps to her words for next October. I am concerned that she could again go back on her word and take the chance of us starting a family away from me again. Not only that I will also be another year older.
Unfortunately I feel that my wife's priority is to become a career woman because with what she has said to me and how she has acted towards me it is clear that her career is more important than our relationship. I love my wife dearly and I would move heaven and earth for her but I feel I need to start thinking in the same way she has with me in that this is my life and I am only on this planet once. I really do not know whether to trust her and give her what she wants or do something now whilst a child is not involved (who she could eventually blame for messing up her career .... and possibly even her life). I also do not know if I want to continue with someone who is clearly selfish and puts themselves first even when a marriage is involved. I am angry and confused and I really want things to go back to how they were but I really don't know if they ever will.
I don't know if anyone can give me any guidance or help. It would just be helpful to see what other people thought of my situation and what you would do if you were in my shoes. Many thanks!
One of the things that we spoke about at length (probably from the time we got engaged) is children; we both agreed that it is something that we want. My wife is 24 and is currently studying some professional qualifications (which she will hopefully finish by August 2006). I am eight years older than her and because of the age difference my wife said she would prefer to be married a year and then try for a child. We get to Sept this year and she then says October all of which I had no problem with. At the beginning of October we started to try for a child. At the same time my wife was told by her company that if she passes her exams she will be promoted which of course means more money. My wife got her period a week a go and of course she was not pregnant. Ever since she has been told about her possible promotion, my wife has been acting strange, so much so I asked her if there was anything wrong on at least two occasions. Eventually she tells me that she was not disappointed that she was not pregnant and that she had decided that we should no longer try until her exams are over by August next year. Since I am that bit older than my wife she has known that I do not want to be an old dad but because of her age there was a compromise to wait for a year which is what she decided and we have now done.
We sat down last night to try and sort this out and I explained to her that I am shocked that we have talked about it for so long (including the church session) and yet she has changed her mind without speaking to me. I asked her to explain to me why she felt like this and she said she didn't know why and unfortunately at no time did she attempt to come up with suggestions or solutions that could effectively save our marriage. I asked her whether there was a chance that we could get to the end of the summer next year and she could change her mind. Eventually she could not commit to next August and more or less told me that she was not ready for children. It also seems that she went along with trying for a child at the beginning of October because she knew it was what I wanted and it would seem that reality hit home when she got her period and made her realise that she could no longer go through with it even for me. Again I asked her what had changed (because we had spoken about it so much) and in not so many words it was clear that she was waiting to get this job if she passed her exams. This is another problem because if she did not pass the exams next summer then she would have to re-sit them in December 2007, which she said she would. I told her what a serious situation this was and I could not believe she was not making any effort at all to try and resolve things. In the heat of the moment she finally said about trying for a family next October (which is exactly what she said about next August and after talking about it said she couldn't really commit to that either. October would mean she will be offered the job and if we were lucky to conceive shortly thereafter she would have a further 9 months in that new role. She clearly does not want to jeopardise the chance of getting this job even if it does mean going back on everything that we had previously agreed.
I cannot believe that despite all of the planning that we have done and agreeing to everything before we said 'I Do' she now has a completely different agenda to mine, which she has decided on her own without speaking to me. She does not appreciate that her decision also affects my life but this does not seem to concern her. Because of all this I no longer trust her because it is clear that my wife only does the things that suit her and nothing else. I have now accepted that there is nothing I can do if she does not want a child yet and I am now going to have to keep my fingers crossed that she keeps to her words for next October. I am concerned that she could again go back on her word and take the chance of us starting a family away from me again. Not only that I will also be another year older.
Unfortunately I feel that my wife's priority is to become a career woman because with what she has said to me and how she has acted towards me it is clear that her career is more important than our relationship. I love my wife dearly and I would move heaven and earth for her but I feel I need to start thinking in the same way she has with me in that this is my life and I am only on this planet once. I really do not know whether to trust her and give her what she wants or do something now whilst a child is not involved (who she could eventually blame for messing up her career .... and possibly even her life). I also do not know if I want to continue with someone who is clearly selfish and puts themselves first even when a marriage is involved. I am angry and confused and I really want things to go back to how they were but I really don't know if they ever will.
I don't know if anyone can give me any guidance or help. It would just be helpful to see what other people thought of my situation and what you would do if you were in my shoes. Many thanks!
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