19 years ago

[Music lady]

I lost my good friend
One of the very few friends I had
A month later, I changed jobs
Changing jobs was one of my good choices
I met you the following March

I thought you were kind
I told you all about my pain inside
How much it hurt to lose someone
You seemed to care
You seemed to listen to me
The one person in my life who seemed to be there for ME

How wrong was I
You were about to make my life darker than I ever thought possible
I trusted you
You gave me your word
You knew I couldn't leave before morning
As the last train back had gone
How could you?
You enjoyed hurting me
You knew I had no one to support me
You knew that I would never be able to report it
I was in too much pain already

But you had to make sure
You had to mess with my mind even more
You had to make sure I was too traumatised to breathe a word
You had my family hanging on every word you said
Made sure I was out in the cold

Why didn't I take my bag upstairs sooner?
Why did I trust you?
Why did my brain have to block the memory
Just to make sure I couldn't report it?
How could you do that to another person
Deliberately turn her world upside down?

[welshgirl]

Hey Music Lady

Sorry I missed this when you posted it, Only just saw it now.

Such a sad story though, really feel your pain and suffering in it.

Why are there such evil people in the world that have a knack for preying on people. Especially when they are at their most vulnerable?! I can certainly relate to that

I hope that you are ok x

[Music lady]

Thanks WG for your reply. Don't worry about not seeing it sooner. I just needed to get it out, and here seemed as good a place as any.

I think the sick and depraved prey on the vulnerable because they think of us as easy targets. I think we're stronger than they realise because we survive.

I'm still a bit up and down, but now November's out of the way, I should start to feel better. Although that depends I suppose on whether or not they play my friend's song at my evening job. I didn't get time to ask my counsellor when I last her, if there are any coping strategies to help me through. I next see her in a weeks time.

Thanks again for your reply. Hope you're ok.

ML