upside down

[isi]

Something from my past has taken over.
I was a child at the time.
Now I am older.
These memories take me further
into the past so I can recover.
The painful flashbacks I so need to get over.
Going back to painful times
I need to do to sooth my mind.
To ease the hurt,
reduce the intensity.
To think I so very nearly ended it.
A young mind so adept
to block out and accept.
With age, understanding, knowledge and wisdom
comes confusion, fragmented
Broken to pieces
A 2000 piece jigsaw with no picture to follow.
Slowly, slowly
The picture becomes clear
of what happened within those tender years.

[Jenny]

This touched so much in me. I've experienced horrific flashbacks and they are so appalling but also they gave me pieces of the puzzle so that I could begin to make more sense of what happened.

I am glad that you are able to write and hope that it does begin to 'ease the hurt, reduce the intensity'.

Jenny