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I have kept away since NFA, to be honest had new life started far away, this is what caused it, (she didn;t want me to move and thought getting me done would mess me up).
But, I want to go back, I have business to take care of there and am sure I will bump into people involved, or at least people who the rumors reached.
My natural reaction is to be bold and defiant, however, this takes up a lot of energy but, also, could get me into trouble. I could lose my temper and argue with some of the idiots.
I need lessons in acting as if nobody is there, treating them as people I have never seen before.
What if they try and attack me? Do I fight back, heck the whole thing started because the silly woman attacked me because I had moved on, I called the police and the subsequent accusations were to save her own bacon from what she thought the police would do.
I can't stay away because I have interests there, my business is a means to an end but I have to go.
I would really need some support here for returning to deal with things. I need to be slick. It hasn't helped not going back since but, how could I? Bail first said I couldn't really go near them, then commitments etc along with the obvious anxiety stopped me from going back. I live nearly 2 hours away.
But, I want to go back, I have business to take care of there and am sure I will bump into people involved, or at least people who the rumors reached.
My natural reaction is to be bold and defiant, however, this takes up a lot of energy but, also, could get me into trouble. I could lose my temper and argue with some of the idiots.
I need lessons in acting as if nobody is there, treating them as people I have never seen before.
What if they try and attack me? Do I fight back, heck the whole thing started because the silly woman attacked me because I had moved on, I called the police and the subsequent accusations were to save her own bacon from what she thought the police would do.
I can't stay away because I have interests there, my business is a means to an end but I have to go.
I would really need some support here for returning to deal with things. I need to be slick. It hasn't helped not going back since but, how could I? Bail first said I couldn't really go near them, then commitments etc along with the obvious anxiety stopped me from going back. I live nearly 2 hours away.
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